Tempted To Diet To Lose More Pre-Op
Yesterday I had my visit with my Nut. She didn't fuss express any complaints. She was glad I understood and did research on what would be required at each stage of post-op.
She also weighed me. After my last meeting of 5 lbs down, I was very disappointed to only have lost 1 lb. this last month. I have been following the plan and even reduced my calorie intake as suggested. Exercise has been consistent.
Today I woke up very tempted to just diet until my immediate pre-op diet starts. I have a goal (self-imposed I'll admit) to get down to 300 lbs by my surgery date. Since I don't know when that will be (most likely late Jan/ early Feb), I want to get this first 50 or so lbs. off.
I realized that I still have some mental crap stuff to get over. Logically I know that this is a marathon and not a sprint. It is going to take time to lose just as it took time to gain...years to be exact. But man would I love to have only 150 lbs to lose post-op.
Why 150? Because I like round numbers. Also, because I've read that sleevers don't lose as much or as quickly as Rny patients and well I'm scared that in the first 6 months I won't lose much. I know I will continue to lose but I worry what it will feel like to lose 50 lbs and then have to lose the remaining 100-130 at 2 lbs a week for another year and a half.
That type of slow weight loss has never kept me motivated or going. The faster I lost the more motivated I was to keep eating well and exercising. I also know I have problems keeping weight off so that is a whole other side of this.
I've come to realize if I'm only going to lose 2 lbs a week, heck that is the same as any other low calorie, low carb diet. Why go through with surgery for such a slow loss rate? Sure, I'll have the extra tool of the sleeve but I really worry after all this is said and done I will not have reached my goal.
I understand this goes back to my fears. I also get it that I need to take a major chill pill. I'm really trying to get my head right for this and know today's recurring thought of not reaching my personal goal is hurting more than helping. So I'm going to chill wayyy down and go have some tea.
Has anyone else felt like this? I'd love to know I'm not the only person so particular about how much I lose before surgery to make things "easier" after surgery.
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