Well, I just discovered this journal here on LBT. I've been being told by countless people I needed to start one specifically for this surgery. I'm not so good with the paper and pen though. My mom bought me a beautiful paper journal...but..it's still empty :-(

So, right now, I'm at the stage where I'm waiting for approval from my insurance company. Even though I have faith in God and I know he would not get me this close and cut me off, I'm still worried I'll get denied. He made me this way, so I hope he understands that I just can't help it, but when things get too bad, I just tell myself over and over again, "Have faith and God will provide." Other times I remind myself of Phil. 4:13 (i believe that's the right scripture number)....."I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." It helps, but it's hard.

My mom and I are both going through this at the same time. So she's waiting for approval as well. However, we know hers is going to get approved and it's going to get approved fast. The surgeon's office even told us that. Mine on the other hand is some off-the-wall, hole-in-the-wall company and everyone i work for says that if i get approved it'll be the first time they've seen this insurance work for someone. So that's why I'm just a tad bit nervous. But even right now, I keep tellin myself "No! God is going to get this approved for me because he's brought me this far". I know I have to show faith, it's just that the wait is nerve wracking and Satan knows how to push my buttons.

Anyway, other than that, I've been trying to find one of those protein shakes I can actually stand! I've tried Advantage, Advant Edge, and Slim Fast-Low Carb Diet. Several flavors of each...and YUCK! *sick*

They may be hard to get down, but I'm forcing. And so far, I've lost at least 4 lbs. Possibly more. Which is even better because If i weigh more than I did at my first appointment by pre-op visit, he won't do the surgery :-( But considering I'm at a weight I haven't seen in at least 3-4 years...I think I'm doing good :-D Over the last year I've lost about 15 lbs. on my own...so I'm excited :-D means I'm doing something right!

So, here I am, waiting...........and waiting.................jumping every time my phone rings. I'll be alright. :der:

Hopefully the next time I write an entry it'll be about being approved :-D:clap2:

-Panda-