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They Wanted Me, And I Really Wanted Them

tmorgan813

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It's been six months since my doctor removed 85% of my stomach. Since then, I haven't had any regrets...unless you take in consideration the thought that went through my head when I woke up while they were removing my breathing tube. But I don't count that since I was all drugged up and not thinking straight. Also, having Nurse Hatchet didn't help matters. However, with fall here and winter around the corner, I have to admit, there are a times I miss it a little. Not much, only a little bit. Like, I wish I had 25% of my stomach instead of 15%. Now, before you all go jumping on my back allow me to explain.

 

Tonight for dinner I made homemade chicken and dumplings. Now, that's bad enough for a sleever but I had to add more temptation to the mix. I had to make corn bread from scratch as well. I mean come on, you can't have one with out the other. It's just not Southern!!!! No self respecting Southerner would make chicken and dumplings with out making cornbread. And, though I'm not quite Southern...I'm below the Mason-Dixon line, so I'm close enough. LOL Also, I started feeling bad for my husband. Since my surgery, his diet has consisted of PB&Js and chicken. Not at the same time. But considering he's a meat and potato man, it's been a hard six months for him. He considers it a treat if I stop at McDonald's for him. Which is VERY hard for me as the smell has always turned my stomach but after surgery it's even worse.

 

So, I decided that if I were going to make him eat chicken again, I would make something he enjoys. I thought I would be fine with it. I know I can have about 1/4 a cup (a little less) of the chicken and dumplings (mostly chicken...maybe one or two dumplings) and maybe a bite of two of the cornbread. The problem is, I had forgotten how much I love both of these things. This is one thing my tastes buds did not change their opinion of....which isn't a good thing. Why couldn't they find both as disgusting as they find Whey protein? Or better yet, like Whey protein and hate the other?

 

So, after a little nibble of cornbread (a very little nibble), I wanted to eat the whole pan! This is the first time in six months that I've wanted to just gorge myself. Then, top it off with the chicken and dumplings and I actually had the thought of, "Man, I wish I had my stomach right now!" WHAT??? Why am I thinking thoughts like this? I know I won't over eat any of this yummy stuff in my kitchen but the thought of, "I would if I could", crossed my mind more than once.

 

Now, the reason I find this so strange is that I have always been a carb fanatic. I loved bread and pasta. I could eat a whole loaf of fresh baked bread in one sitting with no bad feelings. However, since surgery, I haven't really craved either things. Don't get me wrong, there are times I will have a little less than a 1/2 slice of wheat bread, toasted, with some type of protein but most times, i don't even think about it. That was not the case today. Those simple carbs wanted me and I have to admit, I wanted them. The attraction is still there despite how far we have both moved on with our lives.

 

So, with all this said, it's a good thing I only have 15% of my tummy. Because no matter how good either look, smell or taste....I wouldn't give up my 100+ pound weight loss for either things. That doesn't mean I can't dream about them...and how yummy a big bowl of chicken and dumplings and two or three slices of homemade, buttery cornbread would taste.....yes, I can dream and lose weight or I can eat and slime and possibly stretch my tummy out. I'll take that dream and weight loss any day of the week and twice on Sundays.

 

So readers, have you had anything like this happen to you yet? I think for me it has more to do with fall and winter coming and what I consider "comfort" food. All the warm, cheesy, gooey, stick to your ribs (and add pound after pound to your weight) has always been one if not the only good thing about a cold winter day. Looks like I'm going to have to find something else to take it's place....let's just hope it's not more chicken. I think my husband will finally leave me if I don't come up with something new for us to eat. I swear if he found a woman who cooked like I used to, he'd be a little tempted to cheat on me just for the food. Just kidding....I know he would never do it JUST for the food. LOL



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A southern woman!!!! Lord, have mercy, I know just how you feel!!! Born and bred southern cook here! I have NEVER met a pat of butter or a cup of sugar I just didn't love!!!!!

I have 4 kids (17-26) and a hubby that love my cookin' and lord knows I love to cook for them. Just 2 nights ago I was pulling roasted potatos and meat loaf outta the oven......had greens cookin' on the stove and the hubby says "this is almost perfect, where's the corn bread?". Truth be told, I didn't have any corn meal in the house (I know, my grandmomma is turning over in her grave right now) and hadn't thought about any.

Another ah ha moment for me..........funny how life changes and the things we love fall to the way side when something else really cool comes along.....like 45 pounds less of me!!

But, there'll be some corn bread this weekend or early next week.........cause his parents are coming to Houston and bringing us a "fresh mess" of turnip greens!

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You are soo funny! I am soooo with you girl! I am from CA and BBQ'ed hot dogs of all things and wanted to eat them soooo bad. I even went as far as taking a bite chewing it up and spitting it out. It is almost torture sometimes. I am only a few weeks out and I am hoping it gets better/easier. Good luck! Stay strong.

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I am exactly the same way during the cold months. There is something about cold weather, football and sweatpants that makes you want to indulge a litt more!

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This was a good post for me to read... I am a carboholic - breads, pasta and french fries... I get sleeved on MOnday and really hope that I lose my desire for carbs... I *think*. I don't know if it would be better to keep my desire and lose the ability to eat, or just lose the taste for it... I think it would be safer if I just didn't like warm bread and butter anymore...

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This was a good post for me to read... I am a carboholic - breads, pasta and french fries... I get sleeved on MOnday and really hope that I lose my desire for carbs... I *think*. I don't know if it would be better to keep my desire and lose the ability to eat, or just lose the taste for it... I think it would be safer if I just didn't like warm bread and butter anymore...

Over time you will not crave the carbs as much but there will be times that you will want some. Remember, your body needs some carbs in order to keep going so carbs aren't bad....but the whole loaf of bread is. LOL The sleeve really helps limit carbs as most of them swell up and are empty calories...meaning NO protein. So, we learn to eat the protein first and then we don't have room or want for anything else. Best of luck to you and remember the first couple of weeks are the worst. In a month you will look back and wonder how you made it through as well you as did. Biggest thing to remember right now....WALK, WALK, WALK and get liquids in. No one gets all their protein in the first week or two. But you have to stay hydrated or you'll end back in the hospital. The walking will help relieve the pain in your shoulder (from the gasses) and you will fart and burp more than you ever have in your life!!!! Best of luck to you and trust me, you will be so happy you have made this journey!!! Only six months in and I'm 100 lbs from highest and 80 from surgery. I wouldn't change anything except maybe doing it all sooner. :)

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I agree with all the carb loving and Whey hating, I push my self to swallow the shots and shakes, but put a carb in front of me and I have to remind myself why I need to walk away-5 weeks out from surgery and 40 lbs gone, 20 post surgery

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I also loved the carbs and my icecream... but since surgery I really have had no desire for the icecream and only a little for the breads but I know NOT to have them or I'm gonna be hugging me a toilet!! So in the end, I crave from afar and enjoy being healthier!

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