Well, it's Feb. now and although I did go down to 187, I am back up to 192. I hate myself so bad. I have gotten 3 fills, and I know the band is there because when I am really hungry, I eat too fast and the food gets stuck, it's very painful. I had foot surgery on Dec.15th and have not been able to exercise since. I can ride my bike now, but it is too cold. I am at a standstill and disgusted with myself. My friend who had her gastric bypass the same day I had this is down 96 lbs. That really made me depressed. I have no will power and really should have gotten that done. I ate right today but ate 2 cup cakes tonight. I pray I can get this right. I am ashamed:think that I did not loose more. My family wonders why.

Patti

Patty this journey you are on has hills and valleys. Keep peddling you will get there. We all have down times, pick yourself up and keep going. Your friend may have lost 96 lbs. first, but you will catch up a few years down the road.

Ok. First of all....I understand. Try not to be so down on your self. This is hard and dont let anyone tell you otherwise. Im only 3wks out but it feels like an eternity. I have tried to stay on my mushies but I guess to me anything can be mushie if you try hard enough. I feel ashamed also, you would think dr. orders and only mushies would be easy enough. Yeah right.

So I see youve had 3 fills. Do you think your getting enough restriction? Maybe they need to really pump that band up! Keep your chin up.....maybe a few prayers that God could take our cupcake and twinkie cravings away couldn't help either! Lots of love and you will be in my thoughts.