I'm so glad you shared, I'll be sending all kinds of good vibes your way. Good luck on your journey. You've made the biggest decision.. to start.

Hi Tink,

You are singing my song! I have been overweight as long as I can remember. In grades school I was teased for being heaver than the other kids. I was chunky but looking back I was not really fat then. I took a beating verbally from the other kids and my self esteem plummeted. To compensate for my feelings of loneliness and inadequacy I turned to food. It has been there ever since!

I have tried to do wls about 3 years ago I guess. I failed the Psych eval and was diagnosed with depression. If you think you are untreated and seriously depressed you do need to deal with this now. I thought that the doctor evaluating me was nuts! no one that ever met me would EVER know I had depression. I am the first to smile at you. I generally appear happy and seem to enjoy socializing and talking with people. But, that is the surface. In reality I did not get to know anyone very deeply. I just let people talk and I listened. Generally I didn't have to say a thing! It worked well for me at work but outside of work I was existing with ice cream, cookies and fast food as friends. I let my friends lose contact with me. I didn't go out. I stopped caring about my house and could not seem to get the energy to do anything I needed to do. I was in trouble.

Because of my failed Psych eval I went to see a social worker thinking I could get this dx reversed. Nope, she agreed and over time I see that this failed eval was a blessing. In the perfect world I would have been under tx for depression and lost the weight myself. I wish! I have a long way to go.

Your post was timely, Tink. I have my Psych eval tomorrow for the sleeve. I am scared out of my mind I will not pass again. I cannot take yo yoing. It does not help my depression to NEVER succeed at long term weight loss! I need this tool to help me manage both my health and my depression. I know it is not a magic bullet. I think of it as tool that will help me stay on course. I have been under treatment for my depression about three years now I guess. I have learned a lot about myself during this time and I am trying to be positive and I am very excited about the possibility of having this surgery. I really hope my insurance will approve me this time but if it does not I will do it myself.

Best of luck to you, Tink. Please let me know how things go for you. Dee

preaching to the choir!!!

I have my surgery scheduled for Monday...I have had depression for years... and am on meds for it...not a problem with my psycho... ... it's all good and you will get there...and I love this website as people are supportive and helpful!

Good luck on your journey!

Thanks guys! It does help to know we are not alone in our struggles.