Well today is day two of my pre-op diet and wow... I thought I'd love having so many sweet things to eat and drink, but honestly I just want some regular real food to bite into. So far I've had an EAS, 1/2 of an Isopure, cream of chicken, yogurt and a SF popsicle. Yesterday was my first day and I thought this diet was going to be so easy. I ate about the same, however I was super busy. My husband and I took the boat out early and just enjoyed each other for most of the afternoon until the kids got out of school. Dinner time came and I was like, I got this and didn't have any cravings. Today I had only housework to keep myself busy, as hubby went to work and I was left feeling hungry all day. Tonight at dinner time I didn't have anything, but jealousy of what everyone else was eating. I'm already about to break in as little as 48 hours. Will this go away after surgery?

Obviously I decided to start a blog in hopes that through this I may help someone along their journey like so many posts have helped me in making the decision in pursuing the sleeve. And also to get some encouragement on days that I want to give up. So let me tell you a little bit about me. I am 32, I have two kids, one of each. I'm fat. I'm married to an amazing soldier that isn't excited about me getting this surgery and becoming not so fat. He's a health nut and LIVES at the gym. He's scared of me leaving him which will never happen, because I am so IN LOVE and he has supported me through so much, so why not share the healthier and sexier me! My family and friends have no idea that I'm getting this, for one they ALL are over a thousand miles away and two I kind of feel embaressed like I didn't try hard enough to better my health as well as my appearance. Is this normal?

My whole life I've been overweight, but I still was very confident in my appearance and my health was great. Well all of that changed when my husband got stationed in Oklahoma. We received our household goods and I over did it and hurt my back resulting in back surgery last June. Well my weight sky rocketed and even though I'm active again and pretty much back to normal, my weight will not go away or my health problems. I'm 5'5 241lbs. and now my health isn't so great and I'm bigger now than I was at nine months pregnant. My self esteem is hiding somewhere in all this goo that has attached itself to me, to the point where I refuse to get naked in front of my husband. I know TMI, but this never was an issue until now. So with a scattered topic blog, here I am ready for a new healthier and happier me that will look and FEEL sexy again soon. Surgery is scheduled for October 3rd.