Hello Sleevers or Pre-Sleevers:

I started my liquid diet on Monday, August 6th, 2012. I am NOT gonna lie, the night before, I treated myself to some barbecue ribs. Since I couldnt eat them all Sunday evening, I called myself putting them in the freezer to keep them out of harms way. I didnt make it. Monday night, I was consuming those ribs like a wolf who hadnt eaten in weeks!! LOL I used the excuse that I really could not go to sleep with that tremendous hunger and headache I was suffering from as a result of withdrawal from food, so I had to eat the ribs. However, to be successful with this permanent life change, I really need to stick with this liquid program and beyond. Therefore, Tuesday forward, I have been on POINT!!! .

I have to be honest though, the first three days are killah days. I really thought I was gonna lose it. Especially at night, that is my weakest time of the day. I was always in the mindset of treating myself to a good, fast and tasty dinner after working all day...regardless of the calories, fat grams or whatever. I would start getting excited about dinner at 3pm in the afternoon!! LOL Ironically, tonight when I was coming home from my Cardiologist appointment, I felt like celebrating because I was cleared for surgery and my heart is healthy and deemed very low risk. Out of habit I asked myself, "Girl, what's for dinner?" Then I realized dinner is nothing but Protein Shakes, Sugar Free Popsicles and Sugar-Free Jello. I actually felt sorry for myself. That's no way to celebrate! TRUE celebration includes feast and alcohol....PERIOD!! Then I checked my attitude and realized that I am on this journey for a reason...various reasons and it is do or die at this point. So I snapped out of that funk and stopped feeling sorry for myself! I looked at the big picture and became excited and positive again. One thing I could celebrate was the fact that my acid reflux has been under control since I began this liquid diet!! I had to look at the positive results already to squash the negative thoughts.

The mood swings have been pretty bearable until yesterday, when I thought I was going to lose it at work. A co-worker suggested I reschedule a meeting, (which had already been rescheduled multiple times in the last couple of months), to meet a deadline for a task which I was told was completed weeks ago. The sense of urgency came out of nowhere regarding this task and it angered me. How dare someone disrupt my workflow, my schedule, because they need THEIR task completed, which was supposed to be done anyway? I used a tone with my co-worker I had not utilized in a while. Why? I was hungry; weak and exhausted. LOL He got the point and left me alone. He let me act crazy and unprofessional by myself. His calm demeanor helped me check myself faster. I still made them wait and conducted my meeting, I just shortened my meeting. LOL

Today really was not so bad with the hunger. It seems to be true that the lquid diet gets better after the first three days. The point is, you MUST get through those initial days to come out on top! I wish you all success with your pre-op liquid diets. GOD BLESS!!