I won't give you a pep talk because we have all been thru this. So you know the end result will be worth it. So instead I am sending you a big ole HUG. Feel better soon.

Yeah--process sucks. Try not to get sucked in too much. I got to where it was all I could think about--not healthy. Go to your appointment and then, if it were me, I would go and have that fantastic birthday dinner with my family and friends and enjoy every bite without guilt. Even after you are sleeved you will indulge from time to time (although it will be with much smaller quantities).

I have the problem of eating something and think I won't eat this for a very long time and my favorite chocolate anything will be gone. But I hope the craving will go away after surgery. I am 1 month ahead of you time wise and I haven't yet mastered all the NUt has said but to be fair I have changed some. I no longer have carbonation, I haven't ate a sleeve of anthing at all (chips, cookies etc) My husband brought home a homemade blackberry clobbler the night before and I had none and it is still on the counter. On the way home from an outing last night I said I was hungry and was but drank water and went to bed. This is all improvements for me. I am more aware of what I put in my mouth than before. So count the little things you are doing and you will be surprised how you are changing.

I started this process quite a bit ago with the gym and the NUT etc. My doc suggested counseling due to high stress so I do that too. My NUT said to chew every bite 25times. I can tell you that once you chew something 25 times you'd be surprised at what you find you don't really like. Try that. I've noticed that on the days I count...I eat a LOT less. When I don't count I eat too fast and stuff my face. It took a while but I realized that it's a process. I just hope to change my worst habits before the surgery so I don't have to struggle so much after. Good luck to you! keep going and if you mess up just try again.

I will go to dinner, darn it! It's gonna be my BIRTHDAY, after all!

When the NUT called to reschedule (she called, not someone from her staff), I mentioned that it was my birthday and told her to go easy on me. She said she's always nice on the first visit so you'll come back. I wonder if she was kidding! lol

Thanks to all of you for the support and hugs - I appreciate it! I just straightened my shoulders and put my head up - as long as I can stay positive, anything is possible. I can will to this!