Feeling Overwhelmed
I wish to start off by saying I have nover blogged before so I have no idea if what I am saying is the right thing or if I am even close to what a blog is for. I figure this is my journey so it is all good.
So I am one week post-op and I have begun to question why I did this. I have no idea why this is coming up as I have worked so hard to get this done. I was denied by insurance 4 years ago because I had no co-morbid obesity issues other than my weight. I called my insurance company every 6 months while increasing my weight. Christmas this year, I was given the go-ahead to to go to Southwest Bariatric Surgeons in Austin. I went and all of a sudden here I am! Jumped through every insurance hoop thrown in my face. Went above and beyond losing the 30 lbs before surgery could be performed - dropped 60 (since Christmas) and did most of it after visiting with Jerry, the registered dietician at the surgeon's office - great guy by the way! So, here I am on a Sunday morning and pouring my thoughts out here for someone to read in the hopes I get an affirmation that it is OK to have these feelings - I laugh because there isn't anything I can do about it now! HAHA I am missing my satisfying drink of ice cold water. I have never have been a teetotaler - which to me indicates a tea drinker with the pinky extended and sipping politely - no offense intended. I am a grab the glass and drink kind of gal! Used to be anyways. All I want today is to drink ice water - have one statisfying drink and not have it hurt. Yes, drinking water hurts. Popsicles are going down great with no issues what so ever. But the water? The one thing I miss most, is not agreeing with my insides right now. I am angry at my stmach for not allowing me to have one drink. Other than that, it is all good. Need the good to be more that the otherside of the fence though. LOL The things i nver thought I would ever say...
Well, I hope everyone has a marvelous day. I will continue to seek out the positives to my new tummy in the hopes that it becomes automatic and everyday I awake with a newfound sense of self. Let's do this people!
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