heal thyself

zoonoses13 · January 31, 2007

I will not diet ever again. I tell myself this in mantra form every day, while I wait for my surgery date. 31 days left. Is it 31 days until I'm free. Or 31 days of freedom left?

I would move up my surgery date in a second if I could. Even knowing that there will be times I miss my old stomach, my old life, my old friend (food).

Is there anything worse than losing an old friend? growing apart? knowing you don't have anything in common with them anymore? or worse, having a friend betray you?

we've all been betrayed by food. and we all have decided it's time to cut that friend loose, and struggle on without her. And our other family and friends can't fill that void for us. We'll still feel the pain of that loss. Even though we know that she wasn't a real friend.