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Had Enough

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reignoftara

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Okay so my surgery is 8/7/12 and it cannot come to soon. the longer I am this big the worse I feel. I wake up and my ankles hurt my body is sore I'm so sick of feeling this way I am bigger than I've ever been which is why I decided to have the surgery. I kinda wish I could have decided sooner so I could be having it now. I know it's not that long but every day has become a chore for me. Keep in mind I have 4 kids ages 8,6,3,and 2 so it's not lie I can just sit around all day if I could I would be much bigger I'm sure. I know this sounds like a gripe session and I guess it is but I don't want to let my husband know how much my excess weight is affecting me and I just needed to vent I feel like somethings gonna happen to stop me from my surgery and I'm terrified. I guess I just want it so bad and sometimes I stress myself out like that. I just feel ill almost all the time now , headaches which I'm pretty sure are because sleeping is so uncomfortable now I wake up in pain. Gosh August can't come too soon. I try to remind myself that there is now a light at the tunnel. The clock is just ticking so slowly! I'll be alright just had to get it out ok now I will continue looking forward and know that it will soon be worth all this pain.

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I get where you're coming from, as time both seemed to fly by yet also crawl on broken arms and legs when it was my turn. It's hard, knowing your date, yet having to wait and it brings forth a lot of emotions. This is trite, but the days will slip by much more quickly than you would think. Take this time to prep yourself for your new life. Go on walks, spend time with friends, practice always drinking water in small sips. Be kind to yourself and know that if you do need to vent you can definitely come here. It'll be okay, and before you know it it'll be your surgery day.

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I remember that it seemed like forever before I'd be sleeved and now the time seems like it's flying by again. It will get here sooner than you think. BTW, HOW do you have time to worry or think with FOUR small children? I'm in awe of you!

Good luck!! :)

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Thanks so much this is why I started this blog cause I knew I would get the kind of encouragement I need here. I guess I have time to worry cause that's the only thing I can do while doing other things,getting dressed, making meals, laundry, cleaning etc,etc. Thanks so much but I will be in awe of myself when I drop some of this weight can move quicker and get more done, and be more energetic soon so soon.

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hang in there lady! august will. come and nothing will stop your surgery from happening and it will be a dream come true for you! you are in my prayers

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I hear you sister! I can empathize. Your sleeve date does seem a long way away. I know I was also so very anxious and wanted to have my surgery sooner than later and once approved, the date couldn't come soon enough. I think when I was first approved a surgery date was set out a few months but then there was a cancellation and I got in sooner. So..., you might want to get on the list for cancellations and maybe get a date sooner.? If that doesn't happen, you have time to prepare. Try to change your eating to all healthy and vital nutrition now for you and your family. I highly recommend three movies to watch that are super motivating and will help to get the message that the processed food and junk we all used to eat (hopefully 'used to eat' is the key and that stuff is in the past since being sleeved and more aware of good nutrition) is just NOT necessary for life and good health. They are - "Forks Over Knives", "The Weight of the Nation", and "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead". I highly recommend watching these movies. It will change something for the positive and better nutrition you and what you are feeding your family - and what you shouldn't be feeding your family. I recommend watching these...you know, in your free time when you are not chasing around your four kids! Yikes! Time to concentrate on YOU!

And, I recommend exercise every day as the stronger you are the easier your recovery will be and you will be one step ahead! Meditation and visualization is also something to start practicing. It will all help in the long run.

Make this time as positive for YOU as you can.

Best of luck to you.

One Love.

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With you sista! Just starting the journey! See doc for first time this next week! Excited to get the ball rolling! I, like you, have tried my darndest to hide my depression and weight related symptoms from my family, hubby especially. He is a firefighter and 5 years younger than I. My weight has been a constant source of entertainment and discussion in my family for years. I let it go in one ear and out the other, however a couple of weeks ago my mother said something that just hit me in the wrong place! She was as serious as she could be! It was after our church homecoming for which I had bought a new dress, which I thought really good on me considering. The only compliment that she could muster up was "you are so sexy from yours knees down". Needless to say, that very comment, along with having a good friend that just had bypass in May made my mind up right then and there! By the way, my mother is over 300 lbs! Has been all my life! She has been very hard on me about it because she did not want me to be like her. I understand her, therefore I guess I need to be glad she said it, as it was my epiphany moment. My husband has been the food police etc.... for as long as I started my weight struggle after having fertility issues and finally having his child. Will never forget those words, "I ain't having no fat wife"! Well tough dude! You got one, for better or worse! But, now that I have the power that I need to change it, by golly I am going to do this! I was touched that he actually went with me to my seminar. However, when I asked him if I had his support his answer was, "I guess, but I ain't paying for it!" So I guess a skinny wife is not that important afterall! So be it! If insurance does not cover, I have already decided to get a credit card and go to Mexico. There is no stopping me now! They better look out, because they have one determined woman on there hands now! I can't wait to be healthy and happy! ;)

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