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Still Hopeful!

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KatieOkieDokie

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I have decided to actually do a journal on here, and not use my blogger for a change. I am still hopeful about getting sleeved, even though at times it does not seem like it is suppose to happen for me. I often question God as to why.. but I'm sure there is a reason it's taking so long. I still say "When I sleeved" instead of "If I get sleeved" I am hopeful.

 

I did go to state appointed dr. yesterday. That was a trip I'll remember for the rest of my life probably. He was a grumpy old man, probably around 90 years old, and should retire. He was one of those blunt and honest drs. I probably wasn't in the office for more than 5 mins before he just came out and asked.. "Why are you so overweight, why are you so fat? Do you eat too much"? Now six months ago I probably would have cried my eyes out, and that would have broke my heart, and while it was rude as can be, it's not like I don't know I'm overweight. I mean I know. I feel it. I feel it in my muscles, my legs, my arms, my everything. I KNOW I'm overweight (and I'm here seeking guidance, an education on getting the sleeve). I still didn't know how to react to the question though, because I thought I was there to get me help, not beat me down. After not answering him, because I didn't know how, he asks me if I have mental problems, and that's why I'm not replying to him, and rudely let me know that time is running out, he wants to get this done quickly. I never did answer him. He did ask me why I didn't have surgery for my weight issue. I replied.. well you need money, and I do not have the money at this time for the surgery. It's something I am seeking. He really didn't examine me much. Mostly asked questions. However, at the end of the appt. he listened to my heart, and his reaction to my heart was enough to scare me, and have my mom crying her eyes out. The look on his face was scary.. he was dumbfounded that my family doc. has never had my heart checked, and he let me know that the weight has to come off sooner or later or I'm in trouble. I'm basically a ticking time bomb. Scary, it had me in tears.

 

So.. here I am. Unable to work due to my weight, so I have no insurance. I'm ready to have 50 million garage sales, and fundraisers to help me (however I have learned that people are not to hip on donating money to WLS). My parents talked about helping me out, getting loan. My dad figured that if he and my mom would stop smoking, they could easily pay off a loan within 2 to 3 years! That's a lot of smoking. I think it's an awesome idea! Not only would they be saving my life, but their own life too. It was mentioned once, and that's it. Needless to say my parents are still smoking,and now we are all ticking time bombs.

 

I really wish a door would just open, and I could get the help for this surgery!

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Wow, that doctor was a jerk. There are definitely better ways to ask those questions, and apparently he is to old to take some classes on bedside manner! Next time you should tell him about the different diets/exercises you have tried, and that you were there for help in changing your life, not because you desired his lovely personality and witty repartee! As for getting the money, can you refinance your house or use your car as equity?

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What an ignorant ass of a man. I'm sorry you were subjected to that. I will say a prayer for you that a door opens. Good luck!

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Stay Hopeful!!!! Believe, Pray and keep believing and praying!!!!

I was in your shoes, I also recall feeling like no hope. No money, no way of coming up with it. I looked to others to help, they didn't . I eventually had to rely on myself, my way.

I had yard sales, I found stuff people were giving away and sold that to. I am a waitress. I saved every nichol I could and put it in a bank (without an ATM card) in a savings account. My credit was not great. I somehow saved up over $2500. in 4 months. YEAH, ME WHO WAS BROKE LIVING WITH PENNIES, WEEK TO WEEK. I just wanted to be sleeved more than anything.

I still did not have enough and could not get a loan from a bank. My credit was not great and my husband's small family business was not doing well.

I woke up one night and remembered a lady I knew years ago that worked at a bank, She was really nice to me like 20 years before. I recalled her name, looked her up that morning, called her.... she ended up being (after all those years later) the head of the loan department. She helped me to attain a loan becuase she believed in me and who I was years before.

My point.... you keep believing, see it , taste it, know it, live like you are getting sleeved. Prepare yourself, walk into it..

Don't wait for your parents(relying on them). The door will open up. Taste it, dream it, breath it. Want it more than anything, it will happen if you want it.

Guess what.... it is worth it. I never thought I would see a size 14 ever again. I am only 3 months out, down from a tight 20 , really 22.

YOU CAN DO THIS.

I can not wait for the day you say, guess what... I am sleeved. Go to Mexico.

If you have no money, find a nichol put it in a piggy bank, they add up. Just do it!!!!!

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Have you checked with the Doctor's in mexico? There's a thread on this website that discusses the Doctors. They can do the surgeries so much cheaper there. AND, they're very experienced.

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BTW - There's a thread on this website called "insurance & financing" - you might look through that to see if there's any help there.

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