Hi Everyone,

Ok, ok, it is confession time. From the title of this entry I think most of you will be able to guess what I am going to admit.

Yesterday my sister in law baked her very own hot cross buns. Mmmmmmmmmmmmm, they smelt so good and she did offer me one.(She doesn't know about my surgery) I know I shouldn't have but I just couldn't resist them. I choose the tiniest one there and toasted it and then to compound my actions smothered it with butter. I would love to tell you it was awful, I was sick and all sorts of terrible things happened. It wasn't, I wasn't and it was just fantastic. I chewed tiny mouthfuls really slowly and savoured everyone. It was just wonderful. I had no problems eating it at all.

Today I feel guilty, and have decided that in future I must wait until I am further out from my surgery before I do anything like that again. However, saying that, I was relieved to know that my stomach could cope with the small bun especially moistened with butter. (I know, all that fat) oooh it was good. I am also relieved to know that when I am with company no one will ever realise that I have had surgery unless I inform them. They all thought I was eating slowly to savour it, and because I have been dieting they think my stomach is smaller and that is why I am having smaller portions. (Well, they are almost correct).

Is it wrong to keep people in the dark? I know some of my extended family can be so judgemental, and I would rather they just don't know. I may change my mind later on in my journey, but right now this is one little secret I can hug to myself.

Hoping to be better behaved and not give in so easily in future.

Phoenix :wub: