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My Emotions

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desertmom

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over the past few weeks I have been on a real roller coaster emosionally.

 

The thing is I did have a what the heck have I done moment while still in hospital but once it was done,how can that matter? I am never an eternal optimist about anything but I cannot look back to often,I just get so angry with myself for lacking the self discipline needed to eat normal.

 

So,I have little moments when I really want to eat...just to eat,not because I am hungry.Then I have moments when I have the pain in my back and abdomen that I am scared it will stay like this forever.Then I have moment s when I think I can drink/eat too much of the liquidized food.Then I fear the acid which I know is present as it affects my voice.

 

Most of all I fear failing at this,not losing the weight,eating when I shouldnt,staying fat!

 

BUT THEN I HAVE MOMENTS WHEN I REALLY BELIEVE THAT MY FUTURE WILL BE EASIER.That I will lose weight and be able to have fun with my 11 year old.

That everything will be ok.

 

I dont dwell on any one of these things for too long.They are all fleeting emosions.At the moment I am trying to be patient with not eating solids and to drink enough and to not over do it during the day.

 

And that is good enough for me for now.

Xxo

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Good for you! I'm still preop but I have all the emotions. And I know I will have those thoughts postop - what did I do? It's remembering that they are JUST THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS, and they all pass. Thanks for your honesty. Hugs.

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Support groups are very important both pre op and post op because you have some place that you can share those emotions with people just like you who have been where you are. Most local hospitals have support groups check out your local hopsitals where you live. I'm one week post op I was excited the day that I went for my surgery and I was so happy afterwards because I had finally accomplished a 7yr process. Now I'm not going to say that I don't have my frustrating moments because I do especially when it comes to doing simple cleaning tasks because I can't do the bending or lifting. You make it through this so stay positive :)

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Stay positive ! I was once told these two shall pass. I am 6 days post-op and I am also struggling with emotions. I have decided for me, I am going to post little strips on my fridge of positive things to remind myself of everyday. If I see it and read it enough, I will believe it and it will become part of me !

Stay strong and remember the end result is about a new life for you and becoming healthy, and YOU are worth it !!

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