Hi Everyone,

I am having a good day today, feeling really happy about the weight I have lost since being on this milk diet for the last 15 days (9.5lbs) Yea! I know others lose more than that on liquid diets but I retain water so losing that much is wonderful for me. I still have another 4 days to go and if I am lucky I may lose another 2lbs. Either way, I know I have stuck totally to my diet and my liver should just be fantastic and not get in the way of my surgery.

Have got my little case down and am wondering what to take with me to hospital, apart from the usual items that is. Books? I usually love to read, but will I have the energy to sit and read? Crossword and sudoku puzzles, but will my brain be able to concentrate on them? Knitting? What did other people do? I have read on here that lots of people take music but I am partially deaf and can't do headphones! I am also re reading all the material I have from the hospital about what to expect so I am as prepared as I can be.

I know I am well informed, I know I am ready for this, sooooo, why do I have this little tiny voice at the back of my head going...could I do this without the surgery? For goodness sake, get a grip, you know darn well that you have spent the last 25yrs yo yo dieting and always always always regaining. Of course you need this surgery. It's true, I do know I need this and I will go forward and have it done but I guess everyone who does this questions themselves. I was just surprised that I did! I have been so sure for so long then all of a sudden I hear this voice.

Well, having had a long straight talk to myself, I have decided to put a load of tape over that tiny voice to shut it up. I really don't need to hear it right now. So, back to being positive and sure. It won't be long, another three days of liquid diet then the next day my operation and the beginning of a new me. One that doesn't quit, won't look back and will keep losing the weight. Yes, I definately like the sound of this voice.