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Week 13-- Let's Be Honest... Im Probably Not The Best Role Model For Vsg.

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blackanese25

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5'7''

surgery date 12-12-11

HW: 265

GWfS: 250

DoS: 238.1

CW: 187.5

GW:150

 

Ok.. so I normally write how well im doing in my blogs, and honestly this week isn't really different.. Im doing well. I think I am actually doing really well with my weightloss, but here is the thing, when people ask me what im eating and how im losing the weight.. i kind of feel bad cuz the truth of the matter is.. Yes, im am exercising my butt off.. LITERALLY, but im also eating what ever I want, and that is a bad thing.

 

Let me explain... Its not like im just eating junk food, cuz im not. However, if i feel like eating chips, or a cookie, or whatever happens to pop in my mind, well then i eat it! Not like a huge portion of it, but just a bite or two to satisfy my craving. And this early in the the game its just a really bad habit that I am forming. I still eat healthy food for the most part, but im 13 weeks out and i eat fast food, carbs, and sweets!

 

Its funny cuz as i am writing this i have to stop and pause, and i think, wow.. im insane.. i went and had this surgery and im actually sabotoging myself..WHO DOES THAT?!?!?!?!?!?!

 

In my mind i think im justifying myself by saying well im goin to the gym enough to counter what im putting in my body, but the reality is... a year down the road when im at goal and i DONT have to go to the gym every day, what will i have just done to myself.

 

Im not writing this to condone my actions or to even make and excuse for them.. I just think that i need to be honest with myself and those of you that take the time to read my blog each week. Yea im gettin results.. and to be honest even while writing this im still really happy with my weightloss, and my body, because yea even tho i eat bad things sometimes, i still work my butt off in order to keep losing the weight.

 

Im having the worst inner turmoil right now.. and i just want be as good a role model as you all have expected out of me.

 

Anyways, now that ive written an essay ill get to at least some of the good stuff...

 

I went shopping the other day, and here is the awesome part... I bought 3 pairs of pants.. IN THE JUNIORS SECTION..size 13. I was soo excited!!! And to top off the great deals, i bought a medium shirt.. GO ME!!!

 

and you know me.. no blog is complete without a picture.. this one i took just last night.blogentry-18927-13814461016285.jpg

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You are in control of your journey... The only expectations you should be concerned with are your own!!!

Yes, there are people who look to us for guidance and support because we are sleeved already, but I wouldn't put added pressure on myself.... One day at a time.... make a better decision if you need to... but, don't dwell on it... Be perfectly you!!!

BTW, you're doing an awesome job!!

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I was sleeved the day after you were, Dec. 13, 2011. Our stats are VERY similar: 5'7", beginning weight: 237, goal weight: 140, BIRTHDAY: NOV. 23, (1963)..I'm a bit older than you though ;). My current weight: 190. I cheat too...we are only human BUT I try to keep it to a minimum. For instance, if I have a cookie today then I won't cheat again until a couple more days go by. I just try to keep it in check and that's all we can really ask of ourselves. The surgery didn't change our habits, cravings, and emotional issues. It will take some time to change our inner feelings so forgive yourself for your MINOR indiscretions as long as you keep working toward your goal! Good luck to you!

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You look FABULOUS!! Sweets were the main reason that got me overweight. So I hope I can avoid them the rest of my life. I sorta feel like an alcoholic when it comes to sugar. I seriously hope those cravings stay away from my door!

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thank you for understanding and not reaming me a new one.. lol.. I will do better, in all reality, im sure im still gonna cheat every once in a while, but i will do my best to keep it to the bare minimum.. again thank you all for your support!

and frumpy.. that is so funny we are really close in everything, and we share the same birthday.. lol small world.

well good luck to you all as well on your journey!

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I think frumpynomore hit it on the head, we are only human....I don't think I could go through with WLS if I thought that I would never have another cookie (or bite of one!) ever again!! So enjoy each day of your new you!! I also think that in a year from now you will probably WANT to go to the gym instead of feeling like you have to, exercise will also be SO much easier!

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Hi Angie! Hey, aren't we human? I'm *still* working on perfecting me, but guess what - that's never going to happen. All I can do is keep chipping away, and getting the VSG is only the first step.

And, you are still early out so yes, the weight loss is going to happen no matter what or how much you eat. Just know that it does get harder the longer you're out. I speak from experience, and though I'm not trying to lose weight per-se, keeping it off is not all that easy. It IS easier than before my sleeve, but again it does take a lot of diligence on my part. I can see that if I didn't watch myself I really could gain my weight back.

Like you, THANK GOODNESS for workouts!!!

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thank you guys! I know im gonna mess up.. lol.. hell thats a given, i just want to make sure im doin everything i can to better myself, for as long as this sleeve will let me. Cuz i know that as time goes by its gonna get harder to lose especially the closer i get to goal and I wanna get there and then some. I dont want to look back and go, damn i screwed myself over and if i would have just not done that i could be at goal by now.. no regrets...its what im aimin for! I work out diligently, hell probably more than i honestly need to but my goal is not just to hit a certain weight, but to maintain it.. and by god as my witness.. IM GETTING INTO A BIKINI!!! LOL

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