March 11, 2012

Despite the joint pain I am having, my husband and I have been planning a little outing today to go fishing. We found a nice little spot at the river and saw the fish jumping. It is our anniversary tomorrow, but we wanted to spend today together instead. We didn't catch anything, but it was so nice and peaceful away from the kids and chaos at home. I think with all my talk about the gastric sleeve over the past week he has been feeling a bit neglected. I admit, all I have been talking about is this procedure and everything I have been learning. He didn't say it, but I think he is getting a little sick of it. So we spent a few hours without talking about the sleeve or my weight, just being together, even flirting a bit. We used to hike together and I know lately I don't do those things anymore. I know I hold him back often from doing things he enjoys because he doesn't want to leave me out, so instead he'll sacrifice a lot for me. He is a wonderful husband in so many ways. I can't wait to do all the things we enjoy again feeling healthy, energetic, all around good about myself. Just the thought that maybe I can wear a pair of shorts again (I've been hiding my legs under pants for years) I imagine how it is going to be to feel like that active young girl I used to be once upon a time. Be the girl he fell in love with again inside and out. He deserves a happier me; I deserve a happier me. Now I must go to ice my entire body...Ouch!