I drank a half gallon of whole milk this night

I am high on steroids and of course cant sleep and I am wide open.

I find that the gallon of new milk in the fridge is whole (a kid musta made a BIG mistake, NO one likes whole in this family)

I been up watching the movie RENT.. (I think its 4 hours long!!!!lol)

WOW WOW WOW by the way WOW WOW

I never knew what rent was about.. WOW

and I been pissing all night (I pissed myself 3 times... thats sad but true, just a bit, I cant make it to the toilet when I get the urge.. its FATTIE incontinent leaks)

I just went to fill my cup... again ... and its half gone.. and I opened it.

And here I am on the computer again and watching the commentarty on RENT.

Dilema Dilema.. I cant BE wide open like this.. LOOK WHAT I revert to doing. I will NEVER lose weight.

I cant be as tight as I have been, having pains on my saliva till 4pm or its abusing my band. (and its causing me to drink sugar, not have meals)

oh well.. what ever

In case I forget.. (my food log is not in here) I ALREADY drank like 40 ounces of nesquick and 30 ounces of 1% milk...

MAYBE I WILL TOP IT ALL OFF AT A GALLON.. if there was any nesquick left GUAREENTEED I WOULD.

Friggin solumedrol.. I shoulda let that chex mix sit there for ever.

(I had a little at 7am and it wouldnt go away, I didnt PB, but I could feel it.. obviously swollen.. I am too tight and tHIS TIME I CANT SEEM TO COPE WITH IT)