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Ups And Downs

putasleeveonit

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(Don't read this if the mention of food triggers you...) blush5.gif

 

Tomorrow, I will be 9 weeks post op. I've experienced a lot of ups and downs since getting the surgery...

 

Right now, I'm under a LOT of pressure. One of my best friends is getting married in February, and instead of getting measured for my dress in person, I told them to order my dress in size 10! Mind you, I began my journey at size 16/18.

 

I expected that by next February, I would be at least 45 lbs lighter than my pre-surgery weight; and in the past, I wore a size 10 at that weight. So I'm really worried about screwing up things by not being able to fit in the dress.

 

Of course, whenever I feel stressed, my inner saboteur emerges. I've tested the limits of my sleeve in astonishing ways. I'm ashamed that I reverted to certain behaviors so soon after surgery. For many days, I've felt like a complete failure--like I had myself chopped up for no reason.

 

I learned that my sleeve can tolerate just about anything. Prior to surgery, I was hoping it would stop me from eating most foods, especially the ones I like. Unfortunately, that is not the case. The one thing I haven't tried yet is bread, but I've tried pies, desserts, ice cream, and even pasta!

 

After feeling sorry for myself for a few days, I decided to pick myself up and try again. Unlike before surgery, the damage from my trysts with junk food was minimal--although I'm sure my momentum was thrown off quite a bit.

 

The first thing I had to do was hide my scale for a while. For some reason, I get thrown off--regardless of what the scale says, good or bad. So I took a break from the scale.

 

Secondly, I had to remind myself that everyone warned that WLS required work. People worked their butts off to get to goal. It wasn't going to come easy. So with that in mind, I've cleaned up my act. It's only been a few days, but I feel really motivated and I'm avoiding traps that have taken me off track in the past.

 

The thing is, I know I'm impatient, but the popular way of eating to get the goal around here didn't seem to be working for me (Atkins style eating with 60g protein/less than 30g of carbs). Maybe I just needed to give it a few days, but the stalls sent me spiraling out of control. I ended up having to modify my plan to low calorie, low fat, low carb, high protein. I know that way of eating is controversial, but it works for me and I'm taking the proper precautions (potassium supplement every few days, vitamins, and plenty of fluids). I hate that it feels like I'm on another crazy diet, but at the same time, it takes a lot just to get in the little bit that I eat. I couldn't eat more even if I wanted to while on this plan (for me it's an either or thing---either I'm all on plan, or completely off with no concerns for protein intake).

 

At some point soon, I will have to get counseling. I've been putting it off. The woman I want to see is also a hypnotherapist... I don't think counseling alone will be enough.

 

OK, I'm done blabbing for now!



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I feel like I'm in the same boat. I was hoping I'd be one of those people who never felt hunger and has to remind themselves to eat. Not the case with me. I get hungry and it hits fast and hard. If I don't have something to soothe it right away, it throws my whole mood. I've done a lot of testing too and paid the price at that (tummy aches, vomiting). You are right in seeking counseling. That will be my next step first of the year (when my healthcare spending account renews)

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this is a struggle we are all having. getting adjusted to our sleeve is difficult. I try to just focus on getting in my proteins and satisfying my hungry monster in my stomach. I am trying to take prilosec

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my doc had me do a 2week pre-op of two meal replacements (isopure strawberries n cream protein shake which i mixed with a powerade zero grape) for dinner 4-6 oz lean meat and upto 3 non-starchy vege's

i dropped 35lbs pre-surgery! I was not allowed more than 45 carbs in a day.

It worked !!!

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You may have strayed a little but the most important thing is you realize what you needed to work on and you are giving it another try...heck just contemplating WLS has sent me on an emotional roller coaster and causing me to seek comfort in food something I've NEVER done...just know although you may feel alone there are many others in the same boat...I'm sure you're gonna lqqk amazing in that dress and may even need to get a smaller size...Rooting 4 You :-) !!!

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I have the same problem with ups and downs. But I still keep going because the other day I went to the store and bought a new pair of pains and I've drop 3 dress sizes in just 2 months. My surgery date was 11/04/11 and I didn't want to come out of the dressing room because I started to tear up because I was so happy. So even though you have those ups and downs you still can be loosing inches. Keep moving forward on your weight loss and before you know it you might be in a sz 6/8 for the wedding. :)

Happy Holiday's

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