I find myself sitting around and wondering how my life will change. Will I be more mobile to play with the kids - goodness I hope so. The wayI usually attack change is expect the best but try really hard to prepare for the opposite. IN this situation I find myself expecting the best but not feeling really sure that it will work for me... I am delving into my inner self and I find that I don't think I deserve to be thin... seriously?!?!?!? how the heck did I come to that?I have no clue but It hit me yesterday that I don't feel worthy of the operation. I feel that the money could be spent on other "worthwhile" things... Holy smokes, when did my health become not worthwhile???? I used to be a gym rat and feel like I should take this weight off on my own. Does anyone else feel that for whatever reason that they are not worthy? How do I get around this thinking?

I know I'm a good person

my kids are excited for it

I want to be able to active like I was

I exercise now

My husband doesn't think I need it but is %100 on board with me if I want it done ( he doesn't see the extra weight I'm carrying - God love him)

Sooooo - the next few days are going to be spent on me... me looking at myself and knowing that I deserve this surgery and am totally worth it.

Thanks for listening

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