I still haven't heard from the doctors office to start up all of my apts. Don't they know how excited I am to get this 250 lb ball rolling? I feel like calling and saying ...did you forget about me? But I pretty much already did that last week when I called to make sure that they got my fax with all my info. I just want to see this thing materialize.

On another note, I had my parents over for dinner the other night and as she always does, my mother brought up the whole "we're really going to do it this year" diet crusade pact. I almost felt bad about not telling her my little secret but then again, she made it perfectly clear that she didn't want to know. My mom is my best friend but she just can't deal with the thought of a chance of somthing bad happening. Even when the somthing bad is only .7% and the chance of somthing good happening is 93% more likely to happen.

My husband has been a real trooper about this. He has made it clear he is perfectly happy with me the way I am and I love him for that. I love him for a lot more than that but that is a real biggy.

Hopfully tonight I'll be writing in my journal again saying that I just got the call.

Oh to add to my list of things on my first entry:

25. I would like to walk with nylons on and not hear the friction from between my legs.

26. I would like to stop fearing that I will fall through the floor while taking a bath because of my weight and having the parimedics have to come find me in the basement naked in an awful fat position. I really do think of this every time I take a shower!

27. I would love to wear sexier underwear...I'm sure the big granny briefs aren't doing it for my hubby.

hahaha! I thought I was the only one with the shower - falling - through - the - floor fear!!! I would rather DIE than have the paramedics find me fat and naked on the basement floor!!!!! I'm glad we're all in this together! :thumbs_up: