About a month ago I got my surgery date, August 22nd.

I'm not so sure how I feel about this.

I think because I'm going to start my period soon and I've been craving stuffing everything in my face, I'm doubting that I can do this. I need to lose as much weight as possible before surgery. To give my surgeon more room to work and to shrink my liver as much as possible.

I've lost about 32lbs so far. I know I've lost it because things are fitting better, but I don't feel any smaller and I don't look any smaller to me when I look in the mirror.

A pair of capris I bought last summer fit now. A pair of jeans I bought idk when from Ross b/c they were on sale for 10 bucks fit now. When I tried them on they barely fit b/c they were a size too small but I figured for the price and the fact that I'd hopefully shrink into them, I'd get them. My dress I bought last summer fits and looks better, but I still need to alter the bust. My Lame Giant pants I bought a couple years ago aren't skin tight anymore. Very nice. A few tank tops that were skin tight fit better now. I do feel that I've lost more from my lower half than upper half. Which is nice since I'm pear shaped.

I feel like this will be good, but I just don't want to fail. I guess... I'm scared of failing.