I am still in terrible pain with what they are calling arthritus in my hip. I am unable to sleep without taking pain pills, vicodin to be exact and the Dr's are so afraid of getting in trouble for perscribing htem that they don't want to write a prescription for me. I don't know what to do about this though! I just took the last one which I have been metering them out and trying very hard to make them last at least so that I have something available to take some of the edge off this pain so I can fall asleep for awhile at night. The pain doesn't seem so bad in the morning and in the early afternoon, but as the day gets later I get more and more miserable...and mean. Chronic pain makes a person mean and crazy I think. I am not this person! Ifeel so helpless and the Dr's just say Oh we'll see how you are in a couple of weeks and then I have to discreetly beg for medicine and they finally relent and five me a perscription for like 12 or something. 12 will last me 4 days, I know I sound like a crack whore but I am not! I do not like to have to take these but I also have to sleep and I have to go to work and I have to function! There is no position that I have found that gives me any reief...none so there is nothing that I can even do. Sometimes I am afraid because I get so crazy with pain that I will get up at 1,2 3,4,5 in the morning and just wander the house looking for anything, something that might help. I take ibuprofen by the gross, drink some vodka, take a couple of otc sleeping pills, drink Nyquil, anything to help me fall asleep and not feel pain for a couple of hours. I was watching HOUSE MD the other night and I thought..."really what the hell does a person do when they are in chronic pain like that???" I mean I completely love and empathise with his character! I cry in bed every night that I don't have any pain meds, I don't cry myself to sleep, I just lay there and cry. I do sleep for 2 or 3 hours a night just out of exhaustion but otherwise I pace the house and cry. I am sooo tired and sooo frustrated and I don't know what to do.:scared:

Oh honey I am so sorry. I love the show house and I did a girlfriend who had fabromygilia (that is not spelled right) but she had chronic pain. It is not easy to deal with. You have to start putting stuff into writing so it can go into your medical file. You may have to change doctors, you may need to go to the ER, you may want to consult a therapist (psych). I will pray for you.

have you gone to a pain specialist? i know what you mean about chronic pain making you mean--i have seen a pain specialist--i have a nerve pain in my foot--and i take lyrica--which is a replacement for neurontin--these are for nerve pain--and i think they help (though every now and then, the pain breaks through and i go wild--want to cut my foot off)--but pain dr's definitely do take your pain seriously. look some up on the internet--in your area--see if you can get an appt. with one. did you talk to your other dr(s) about sending you to a pain specialist? ASK!

best wishes, hope you find a dr. to help you with this chronic situation; i definitely know how you feel. it's TERRIBLY unpleasant. my sympathy is with you,

girlin

nyc