Hello everyone, I'm new to this site,be reading everyones story here for a while now and decided to join. My surgery date is Feb 10, 2011 with Dr. Tanaka at Pacific Bariatic in San Diego. Everyday since I got my date I think I changed my mind about this surgery at least a thousand times. I keep telling myself I can do this on my own, just give it one more shot. I was so excited about getting it, now that the date is getting near I'm getting so scared about having it. What if something goes wrong? What if the pain is unbearable? What if I can never eat again? These are some of the questions that keep popping up in my head. I can't really talk to my family or friends about it, because most of them think that I'm crazy for having it anyway. I'm just praying when Feb 10 2011 comes around I won't talk myself out of getting it done.

 

Scared is normal, as a mom with two toddlers and no family other than my husband, saying goodbye to them the morning I was wheeled into the OR was the hardest thing that I have ever done....one last pic taken with my husband's cell phone about 5 minutes before I was wheeled in...reminded me that I was making the right decision...you cannot begin to imagine how your life is going to change in so many wonderful ways! Physically and emotionally! Do not worry about not being able to eat, for the first time in my life the thought no longer consumes me! You will lose your appetite, and I mean that in a good way....the removal of the cells that would normally secrete ghrelin allow your brain to match the size of your new stomach! I have lost any craving for sweets. This is your personal journey, everybody is different, but I will tell you that for the first time in my adult life, I know that I can succeed at long term weight loss! I am not sorry for a second! Recovery was a little tough for the first few weeks, but everyone is different....take the pain meds! Get rest! The most difficult part for me were the dissolvable Vicryl sutures placed in the deep fascia at the site where they remove your stomach....DON'T LET THAT SCARE YOU! They dissolve in about 4 to 6 weeks, and any pain that you may feel , over the first few weeks of recovery, goes away in an instant! I was a little nauseated, that will subside ... I think the hardest part was staying hydrated...Again, being scared is normal, but once you have gone through it, and you have past the first few weeks of recovery, believe me, you will not be sorry about the decision that you have made! Do not think too much, give your mind a rest, take a deep breath! God bless you and your journey!

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