Ditto sister. My surgery is scheduled for a week from Friday! I feel everything you said and I am scared about some freak thing happening and I throw a clot or something. Yet I am just as ecstatic about being normal looking in the near future. Maybe we can walk this out at the same time??

I think I understand what you are going through. Tomorrow it will be 2 weeks since I had my surgery. I was excited about the possibility of having a better quality of life--but I was terrified that something would go wrong and that I would seriously regret having the surgery. I'm not far enough out from surgery to tell you "I love my sleeve." I'm still on a full liquid diet and can't eat much of anything--but I'm on track for where I need to be in the healing process, and I'm trusting that my ability to tolerate normal foods will come with time and that my stomach capacity will increase over time as well. For now, I'm not especially hungry and I've lost 24 pounds in 3 weeks. (9 before the surgery and 15 in the last 2 weeks. I'm already off my blood pressure medication and I was able to walk 1/2 mile with my family tonight. Just to be able to walk around a lake with my grandchildren peddling their bicycles was wonderful! (Before the surgery, I had so much pain in my feet and shortness of breath that I could barely walk to my own mail box.) I believe that I made a choice to live a better life and to live a longer life, and so far I have no regrets. I have lost weight and regained it so many times...I think one thing that can help us leave that lousy dieting past behind is that we are having the part of the stomach that produces those self-sabotaging hunger hormones removed. Along with having smaller stomachs, I believe that will help us win this battle!

My Dr. said I would lose 15 pounds on the pre surgery diet....but I only lost 7. I wish it were more. I have to go to the hospital by myself tomorrow. Hubby will be there by recovery time but it is going to be scary! I drank about a 2 liter of Deit Pepsi a day before and amazingly, just giving that up on the pre op diet has made my skin look AWESOME. Wish me luck

:biggrin0::biggrin0:I am wishing you luck and prayers and for thr surgeon to do exactly what he needs to do when he needs to do it. I keep thinking about the $40,000 I have invested and the hassles I have endured and it is amazing that something so simple is so hard for the likes of people like me. I think this is the right journey for me even though roadblocks keep popping up. For example, surgery date was next Friday. Had to cancel, because my employer said I had to give 30 days notice to be out 2 weeks. Next surgery date available is June 21, 2010. I am telling myself the extra time will give me time to get myself in better physical shape for the procedure. Please stay in touch and before you know it you will be waking up and your hubby will be there and you will be on your way to the other side of this. Please keep us posted.

Keep a hold of your goal. If you know it is right for you, have faith that it will happen and do your part in the meantime. I doubted myself at times pre op and even most when I had complications, but deep inside I know this is right for me. And I know it is going to work!!