My rambling thoughts...

As I reflect over 2009, I realize that the year was sort of an emotional roller-coaster for me, but also how many wonderful things occurred in my life.

The beginning of the year started with anxiousness regarding having my fibroids surgically removed (hoped to keep my uterus), then sadness about the idea I wasn't as healthy as I'd like to be to get pregnant (too fat, not ovulating), next came excitement while learning about and preparing for weight loss surgery, trepidation while my wls date neared, elation with the results of a complication-free surgery and rapid weight loss, fear about entering a new decade (turned 30), frustration and happiness as I begun to learn my new stomach, and finally contentment and peace as I started to feel like the "real" me/ a normal person for the first time ever.

I'm now entering this 2010 year with a real sense of peace in my life. It's hard for me to describe...I'm happy. I think I will always be the type of person that has to have something to strive for, make myself better, but I'm starting to discover that just because there is always something to work towards, it's okay to just enjoy the moment too.

My plans and goals for the year (so far, because they are always changing/evolving depending on what life throws out) include...

• tryout to become a Jazzercise instructor (if I make it, GREAT, but just making it to that step is huge for me)
  
• decluttering my life (there is a lot to this one)
  
• reaching my goal weight (whatever that might be...right now I'm 155 lbs, 7 pounds away from a "healthy" bmi, but who knows where I'm supposed to end up...maybe here?)
  
• enjoying as much of this year as possible without letting things drag me down (keep positive)
  

I think that's all for now, I'm really excited for 2010, and thankful that I've been so blessed in all my previous years.