As I watched my perpetually skinny husband and his daughter and her husband (probably 300 lbs each) tuck away huge amounts of food over the weekend, I started to think, maybe I should just try to eat healthier, be more active. Today I wolfed down a roast beef sandwich and curly fries like no tomorrow. I cannot do it on my own. If I do not have surgery, I will never be any thinner. Truthfully, I could continue on as I have and stay around 200 lbs. I could eat whatever I want, as much as I want. I could.

But I don't want to be a fat, old lady. I want energy for other things. I want to wear nice clothes again.

And I don't want to lose weight and then gain it all back.

So the sleeve will give me restriction. That's what I need. Just reduce the quantity of what I eat. I expect to eat carefully for the first 6 months. Lean protein first, veggies/fruit, then carbs. I imagine I will have lost most of the weight I have to lose by then. Then I will be able to allow myself more treats. But I hope to eat like all of the other skinny people eat. Small amounts of normal food, which includes some sweets and "bad" food (fast food) now and again (once I am through losing weight).

Being around super over-eaters all weekend almost lulled me into thinking I don't need this surgery. After all, neither of them thinks their weight is a problem, why should I? It sure helped to get on this site this morning to get recommitted. I AM recommitted.

VSG - here I come!