Tomorrow:- The moment of truth?

Posted 09-20-2009 at 03:09 PM by Hychap2009

Tomorrow is supposed to be the day that they contact me with news about a date. Will they be true to their word this time? God alone knows!

I've tried the Nector Apple Ecstacy Protein drink. Yeah, not so bad. I hope to keep this on my shopping list, hope to try a few other flavours. I'm thinking of introducing protein powders into my mum diet. She does not eat all that well, she has her moment. Maybe a little additional protein may help, especially as she has lost her teeth again, we have to wait weeks for a new pair to be made, so you guess it, she is unable to chew meats and eat much of our regular staples, such as green banana and some yams. Did I tell you guys that I've just been told - Friday actually, that my kidneys have got worse. I feel like its the begining of the end right now. I'm doubting whether any of my health issues can be reversed, will things ever get better for me. Right about now my diabetic is making me feel very poorly on a daily basis; my blood pressure although some improvement - experiencing lots of dizzy spells, and headaches; my feet really hurt and i'm unable to walk any distance; aches and pains seem to be everywhere on my body. My hair is continuing to thin out; Oh i could go on and on.

My sisters gone off to Spain, actually that sound a bit bad, and its not fair. What happened is my niece has moved to Spain for a year as part of her degree, my sister went with her to settle her in. Well you've guessed it - she's made no arrangements about the care for my mum, so its down to me. Luckily my step daughter helped out by going to mums early Saturday morning to wash, dress and give her breakfast. I did lunch time - my husband drove me down there, my husband gave mum her evening meal and I got her ready for bed. Sunday was much harder, I had to negotiate with my elderest sister to give me a hand. Anyway, in the end she got mum bathed and dressed and gave her breakfast; She stayed till lunch time. My husband fed mum her evening meal and I got her ready for bed. I do not grudge doing anything for my mum, I love her to bits - I just need some time to get as well as I can - so that I can look after her better - without grinding myself into the ground. I also look after my 18month old grand daughter at home. This sometimes takes its toll, especially when I need a rest. I just get the feeling that i'm been taken for granted sometimes. the problem with that is - I love having my grand daughter as I don't trust anyone else to look after her as we at home do. She goes nursery part time, but her mum works some very horrible hours, very unsociable and has sleep overs at work as she is a residential care work for young people. Anyway that's enough for now.