Written 12 June 2009.

Ok, despite being told that I would recieve a letter this week for my pre -assessment date, believe it or not, today still no letter. I was fumming, this roller coaster ride is getting to me, I wont to get off.

Anyway, I calmed myself down and phoned bariatric admissions and spoke with Pauline the administrator -co-ordinator. It wasobvious she was familiar with my name and asked me to hold on whilst she checked. She then returned and stated that she had not yet sent the letter out. She explained that she was still dealing with people waiting since December 2008. Anyhow, she preceeded to inform me that my pre-assessment date will be on 3rd of July at 9am. I was a little upset but held that to myself. Alright, so the 3rd July, what do I need to do now. The bad news is that i've spent the last 2 weeks backsliding. Firstly, I think I was really good last week Friday on my birthday, I had a mushroom risotto, and tomato juice. That was it for the night, I think I was too excited to eat anything else. However, at the weekend, I indulged myself with my birthday cake, OMD, it's soooo nice. I've helped myself to quite a few slices this is not the norm for me as I not really a cake person. I also had a KFC hot wings at least 3 times over the past 2 weeks and a McDonalds cheese burger and milk shake. I don't even eat McDonalds. What's going on I hear you ask, well I think this a little comfort eating going down here, frustrated with the whole surgery situation, plus Aunt Mary from Red Hills, (monthly cycle). To top it off, I've not been to water aerobics for 2 weeks neither tai chi. I didn't go to tai chi because I did not want to pay the fee for a whole month - if I was going to hospital for my surgery. That's a joke.

I really need to get back on track. I need to start my exercise, right now I need to muster some self motivation.

We'll see.

Hyacinth.