Written 4th April 2009

Well folks I attended my first ever counselling session yesterday (Friday 3rd April). Interesting, talked about my feelings re. the soon to be up and coming surgery, a bit about myself, my life to be precise. Also, the fact that I do have some reservations about opening up to people about things that I feel deeply about. Talked a little about the death of my father - losing him and the impact it had on me; how I handle stress; and more importantly, WLS do I feel like i've made the choice or was the decision made for me.

It was good to talk but the jury's out at the moment. I've another appointment in 2 weeks.

The counsellor asked me what I hoped to get from counselling sessions, I don't think I told him what he wanted to hear. I concluded that I am self sufficient and counselling was at the bottom of my list, in terms of all the other departments I have to visit with regards to my health. He suggested that perhaps I just needed to offload and have someone listen. This may well be true. I explained that I decided on counselling when it was first decided that WLS was the way I had to go. At the time I was terrified, anxious and scared. Those feelings have subsided since visiting this site/forum (TT) everyday. I've learn't so much and I now look forward to being post op.

and getting well.

On another note, I went to tai chi today. 2nd session. This time I had no friends to go with,they all (3) had reasons they could'nt attend today. Normally I'd use that as an excuse to say I'm not going alone. Not this time. Off I went all by myself and enjoyed it even more than the first time. I'm back to water aerobics on Tuesday, unfortunately this clashes with my hospital appointment for my blood pressure, i'm going to see if I can change that as I don't wont to miss out on my water aerobics. I also thinking of taking up something to deal with my arms and tummy. Mybe the gym or I saw at the centre classes for arms, tums and bums lol.

Anyway, I'm keeping on track.

See you later.