Today marks the end of Me as we currently know me.. Today i say good bye to the food dependent, emotional binge eating person i have become.. well in all honesty i said good bye to her about 2 weeks ago when i started the last leg of this journey and went on the Pre-Op diet. Tomorrow marks the start of the next stage of my life, to say i wasn't anxious, nervous... possibly a little freaked would be an understatement. The idea of surgery terrifies me... this isn't the first time I've had surgery but each time has been the same right up to the point where they put you to sleep the crazy thoughts will flash through my head of the what if's...

I know i am in good hands.. I discussed this with the nurse at the surgery center.. I would take the word of a nurse over a surgeon ANY day.

I know i will be fine

I know i am strong enough to do this.

I know I HAVE to do this

This is for me.

This is for the girl i used to be

This is for the slightly older hopefully smarter woman i want to be.

This is for my girls - i will be there to share all those mile stones in their life's they have not yet reached.

This is for ME....

Can't wait for this Era to end and for the next one to begin.