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About to pull out my hair!

stept04

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I'm sitting here in my house going crazy. I woke up this morning at 4:30, and could not go back to sleep. I've been going crazy over the past week. I've got about 3 weeks before my surgery and I am so anxious. I mean really anxious. I am obsessed with this website I've read everything on here. I post whenever I have a question, just so I can communicate and interact with people going through what I'm going through. I keep trying to find new people to talk to. I don't have anyone around that I know personally that has or is going through this. I'm so obsessed with getting my lap-band that it can't come fast enough. Luckily I have meet some people through this site that I talk to, but it doesn't seem to be enough. What's going on with me? Has anyone else been this obsessed with getting the band? I know my husband Is getting tired of hearing me talk about what I've done,what I need to do,what he needs to do, what I should not do etc., you get the picture. But he is being a real trouper. I don't really have any questions to post about so I decided to post this blog and hopefully get some of this energy out. Get this, I hate writing,but that is how bored I am. I know I'll get through this, but I'm driving everyone else, along with myself crazy in the meantime. Maybe I should go for a walk after this, I really hate walking too, but I have to start sometime. Anyone else going crazy waiting? Along with all this I'm also on a high protein low carb diet and staying at about 1200 calories, which seems to be adding to this anxious bored feeling, I don't know why, maybe because I can't eat and don't know what to do with my time and energy. Writing that just mad me think, that might be it I just finished finals too. I think I eat when I get bored and I don't have anything as of yet to take it's place. Not even banded yet and having issues,Oh boy. It is a weird feeling it is a lost feeling. Can anyone relate? Funny, this has been therapeutic, I never would have thought. I have heard journaling(sp?) is helpful but did not believe it. Learn something new everyday. Well that's about it just needed to vent some. Good luck to everyone with your journey.



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I felt that I needed to talk to a "live" person before my surgery and my clinic was nice enough to get two different people around my age and profile to call me - we just chatted about their lives since surgery and what I could expect - it put me at ease - answered questions I had not even thought to ask and assured me that live does go on after surgery. Maybe you could ask you clinic to do the same for you?

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I was very anxious before my surgery too. It was all i talked about for months. I am afraid to be put to sleep, but i wanted the surgery so bad. Had it in february and everything has gone so well, no problems at all and have lost almost 50 lbs to date.

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just had my surgery yesterday.know how you feel. Food is such a big part of our lives. we need to find something to replace it. i bought a puzzle to do. Books on lapband to read. right now im in bed trying to type. The area I had the surgery in hurts like heck. But my actual stomach for liquid intake does not hurt. Glad for that. My left shoulder is in pain. I have been up walking around today. Sleeping alot with pain meds. The whole time , I can't believe I did this. I am so happy to be on my way. Hurts so good. Knowing I am going to lose some of this weight. Not hungry at all. I had all those feelings. Like Im going to miss my food. I love so many things. I can tell you right now. No interest in it at all. You go girl. Its going to all be good in the long run. Keep the faith and find something to do to keep your mind occupied.

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Hi!

My name is Shelley, and you are not alone! I was crazy obsessed before my surgery. I even went over my data plan on my phone checking this site. I researched and researched to make sure I knew everything. Then finally I thought I was going crazy. I had so much pent up energy and anexiety over it that I would cry at night. So this is what I did... my suggestions to you are:

-Pintrest I pretty much planned my entire wedding in a month to make myself stay off this site more than twice a day. And my wedding isn't until July 2014.

-Pintrest again, but instead of researching the band. Research and pin the life you're going to have after the band. Focus on farther down the road. I have a whole board on pintrest of clothes and fashions that I want to be able to wear when I get to my goal weight. Pictures that I want to have taken, because you know you're gonna want a photo session when you hit goal.

-Library I went to my local library and found a book that I hadn't read since highschool. Then I found other books to read. And it helped. I found memoirs from overweight girls, which were interesting.

-Arts & Crafts I made a "Journey Journal" I covered a composition notebook in inspiring pictures and quotes and started writing information that was going to help me along the way. (I can send you pictures if you like to get a jist of what it is)

You just have to figure out a way to distract yourself, cause after surgery, when you are in pain, you're going to ask yourself... "Why did I want to rush this?" (Don't worry, it's worth it, but you'll still probably ask yourself that.)

I hope this was helpful!

-Shelley

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Yes, you can send me pics if you don't mind,and thanks for the advice. I am on here way to much.I need to do something else with my time.

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