Boohoo..I am tired. But this stomach sleeping gal is struggling to get some decent shut eye laying on my side. I am going to go on the couch in a bit and tryto get a more comfortable position. I am up now drinking a smallprotein shake because I am actually hungry. I know it is not an optimum time to eat, but seeing as I stuglle to get food in right now, I will eat whenever my tummy tells me I can. I actually used a hang blender to mix my protein drink and it tastes tons better-none of that protein sludge in the cup. ::shudder:::

I am so excitedfor Christmas. I knw it will be great and I am going to enjoy the company and my family and who gives a crap about food. It will always be there! These 3 weeks of liquids will be tough, but not the end of the world.

I am however craving a piece of baked haddock. I think that will be the first thing I eat when I can have solids. What a strange thing for me to crave.

I went through my closet today anddumped a crapload of clothes. I have sizes from 22 to 16 in there. I sorted the clothes together by size and then put the 16's at the back, followed by 18' and 20's. The 22's all went in the trash with some really old "thinner" clothes too because by the time they fit, I am buying something new. Ihavehung onto so mnay things because even whenI lost weight int he past, I think I knew that I woulg grow back into some of the clothes and I kept my favorite pieces. Not anymore!!! I may save some of the ncer things and try to get rid of them through friends here that are coming down in size. We'll see if I can figure out a way to do that. I have thingsthat have tags on them because I havea terrible habit of buying and not returning whenthe things don't fit. Now some of them are too big. geesh-what a waste of money.

Mom told me today that whenI get down to my goal of a size 12 or 10 (we'll see if it is my goal when I get there), she will take me shopping. I am holding her to that! I love it!

I went outlet shopping last week before surgery and fell in love with an Izod Black winter jacket. It was gorgeous and marked downto 50 bucks. I tried on the XL and it was barely zippable. I expected as much since an XL in a designer store is inherently small. Nothing like the "big girl" stores where sizes aremuch more forgiving! I now wish I had bought it, because deep down I think I could be wearing it is a month or so. Can you imagine? I cannot wait to shop in normal stores. How nice. Even being a 20, I find the clothes in size 20 are not comfy. It will be nice to shop off the rack. Okay, enough fantasizng for one night!