I just can't seem to get it together. i read all other blogs about menus and updates and all that stuff and I think to myself....I'm witty, I'm organized I CAN DO THAT.

Uh...NAH!

I am disappointed in myself, but that's just me. I am a planner, a doer, a go getter.

Anywho.

My menu plan for the next 2 days are won't be worth posting. I just had a fill today and I'm on liquids for the next 24-48 hours, then soft for the following 3-4 days. I didn't follow the directions properly the last time and found myself gaining 2 lbs since my last visit. I can read all about how important it is to follow directions, and how this is my choice and on and on and on. I know, I get it, I had to fall before I could pick myself up. When I saw that 2 lbs, I wasn't surprised, but I was very upset. I had to reboot myself and decide for myself that I have to let the lapband work for me, and in order for it to work I have to use it properly.

I have followed my menus, but I found myself eating a little more here and a little more there. Yes, calories do count. My 2 lb weightgain proved that to me.

I had my 6 months bandaversary on Jan 16th and I am happy to have lost about 30 lbs. It was not done easily or without effort, and I just don't think I could have done it without my band. It was my wakeup call....I qualified for a lapband. Not my proudest moment, but so very thankful for it.

So, I promise myself to blog...more often. May not be everyday.

To continue my 30 minutes a day walking.

To add some light hand weights.

To accept that I am worth this. I deserve to be healthy. I am already happy.

I'm always happy. Yeah, I am one of THOSE people. I smile through everything, I strive to see the good in every situation.

And when it starts to get hard, I have a rock I can lean on...my awesome husband. Very greatful and blessed.