I'm having a hard time right now. Yes my life has quieted a little after a month of pure stress.

Firgured out that my band was too tight so of course I was having a hard time eating. We removed some fluid and now I'm sitting comfortably at 5 ml (I have a 10ml band). I actually get hungry now and for the first time in YEARS! my stomach growls. It's rather odd sitting at your desk at work and then you feel your stomach vibrate. I'm back in school and trying desperately to get caught up since I'm behind in my short-term classes.

All in all I guess I expect to be scolded. Food choices have sucked royally lately. Not eating what I should be eating. Not exercising like I should be. Just got a new job. Just moved from one place to another (that took days). I lost 3 pounds in 2 weeks last time I went to the clinic. I blame sweat on that additional 3rd pound. Normally I'm losing around a pound a week.

I've become motivated to walk with some of my new co-workers. They have a chart and we all have a pedometer on our smartphones (accupedo [it's free]). So I walk more than I used to. I don't like to walk but it is what it is. I want to start doing weights but I'm paranoid of going to the gym I belong to. I don't know why I just am. Could be because it's less than ideal but I can't afford the "good" gym.

For breakfast, I've resorted to Atkins meal replacement bars. Snacks, Atkins snack bars. Oddly enough they are really good and easy to digest. Lunch, is whatever I can grab and consume. Since I'm close to home I can get a protein shake if I'm running low on time at lunch. I know I shouldn't be doing this but my thinking is "eat something I'm allowed to eat or what I should be eating/consuming is better than not eating at all or rushing and whatever it is get stuck." I'm thinking I should start carrying around my "minute glass" (like an hour glass but only a minute long) for when I eat anything.

I try to keep a food diary but I always end up leaving stuff off. I feel like I'm failing because I'm not keeping up my end of the bargain. I eat late at night (8-10pm) because we don't eat on a regular schedule. Most of the time we have no idea what to cook/eat for dinner. I have school at night and as soon as I get off from work I usually head straight there or try to start prepping a dinner that I have no idea of what to cook.

Any ideas?