B)This is my first blog entry. I am 41 yrs old, married to a wonderful man (Stan) who is my number one cheerleader together we have a very energetic 5 year old (Zoe). I have always been a big girl and have decided now it is time to make a change not only for me but my family. I need to do this for my health ( type 2 diabetic, want it gone) have been told by hubby I stop breathing in my sleep and I know I snore since I wake myself up sometimes lol, but also I want to be able to go on rides with my daughter at amusement parks and not worry I won't fit into the ride. I want to be around to see her get married and have kids of her own. I want to be able to buy the cute clothes and not sometimes have to shop in the mens dept for shirts. I was in a MVA in 94 and I think that was the only time it was good to be big, head on with a van wound up with a broken knee, very bad multiple breaks in my arm and have the original Harry Potter scar in my forehead, Dr, said if I hadn't been the size I was I would have been killed, I think ( know) I used that as an excuse for years but no more. I know if I lose the weight it will be better for my knees besides being better all around. I have been married for 10 years and have yet to look at my wedding album because I hate how I look in pictures, I only have a few pics of me and my daughter and I want that to change I want to have pictures of the three of us together we are planning a surprise birthday trip for my daughter to Disney for her birthday next year and I want to be able to show people pictures with us in them as a family.

I had gone to a doctor about a year and a half ago but his staff gave me a hinky feeling, needed to get five years worth of weight but she said don't worry we can dates if needed, didn't get a worm fuzzy from that so I put the idea out of my head. But now it is at a point I know this is probably the only thing that is going to help me make the change I want and need, I haven't told anybody about doing this just not ready for the rest of the world to know. I know it isn't going to be easy but I know with the love of my hubby and daughter I can do this. I have my first meeting with a doctor on the 7th, Dr. David Greenbaum, have contacted my insurance co about the surgery and they said they just need a letter presert from the doctor with my current weight my BMI is 53 so I think it would be in the best interest to approve me for surgery (cost effective for them since if I can get rid of my type 2 they would like that). Well that is about it for now, talk to you all soon.