Thats what I keep telling myself. I call myself a skinny bitch because, all these beautiful women that walk by, I always whisper to my friends, "skinny bitch". lol. Its a way of vent out my jealousy. I really want to trip them when they walk by eating an ice cream bar and wearing a size 3 jean.

Anyhow, last night I kept telling myself yes, I'm going to be a skinny bitch too! and I can't wait.

I know a lot of people have surgery for health reasons, and thats what I'm telling my husband. But deep down, I want to be skinny, I want to be that skinny bitch that walks by in the mall and the fat girls say "look at that skinny bitch". I know that sounds weird, but thats how I feel. I want someone to call my skinny, just once.

I know that its a little vain, but I just can't help it. I want my skinny body back damn it! I know that the other health issues I have will go away with me losing weight, but really, I don't even care. The only thing I care about is getting my 20 yr old body back at 40! It sucks being 40 and looking 40, I want to be 40 and look 20. Maybe its a mid-life crises, hell, maybe I'm just crazy and a freak, but I don't care, I want my skinny body back. Some say it can't be done, I'm 40 and face it, but I will prove them wrong!

I took my before pic in a bikini, it is SCARY. You can see all the cottage cheese on my thighs, its really gross. But...........I plan on taking my after picture in a bikini too!

i understand how you feel!!!! please be sure that when i lost my 115 pounds that Im gonna really strutt my stuff!!!

ThickcheckTexas - YOU GO GIRL! We'll strut our stuff together. lol.

I too understand about the "skinny bitch syndrom" but you speak about health problems, for me I have several co-morbidities (heath problems) but the skinny bitchy syndrom never leaves.

So I would like to wiggle my fanny with less heath problems!

I hear ya Lynn. The health problems are here and I can't avoid them, so I know I need to do this for health as well. But being called a skinny bitch will be the icing on the cake!