5 more days!!!!

I am so anxious. I am waking up at night thinking about it. I am on this website 5 times a day! I am feeling like I will get through this alright but I am still in shock that I am doing it at all.

I ate pizza yesterday and a small steak and cheese sub. It wasn't even good. I just felt like I had been doing so well the past two months that I had to have a last hurrah before my self inflicted liquid diet begins today. I honestly think I am nuts but I learned something---crap food just isn't as exciting as I think it is anymore. It made me feel sluggish and really didn't taste as great as I thought it would. From this point on, if I ever have a craving, I will at least make sure it will be something worth it. If it had been really good pizza like found in the North End of Boston, it would have been worth it. But there is no good pizza like that around here. And I know I willbe able to have it again someday, I will just have to chew chew chew it. It is only food. Why do I give it so much power over me sometimes?

I hit the gym this morning and did 30 min elliptical, 20 min treadmill and tried the scary looking revolving stair machine. Yup, lasted about 5 minutes and my hear rate was really up.Not to mention, I couldn't get the hang of the machine and my toes kept getting squished. Maybe my feet are too big. At least now I know what it is like. I love the elliptical, so I guess I will stick with that. I just feel like I need to mix it up sometimes.

Off to the dentist for part 2 of my root canal. Lucky me!

~Kay