I have made these lists before but I want one in my journal that I can look back on. I will list what I want with my new healthy self and I can check them off as they are accomplished!

1. I want to fit my butt comfortable in a kayak. I love to do it, but last time my butt was pinched and it was not comfy for long.

2. To bikeride without being afraid the tires will look flat and the the seat is lost in my ample rear.

3. To be smaller than my husband. (or at least the same size!)

4. To wear my wedding ring comfortably again.

5. To go to amusement parks and not be afraid the seat won't fit-I have always fit in the past but it has come close!

6. To not have to sit on the couch with a pillow over my stomach for fear that everyone see smy enormous belly rolls.

7. To feel comfortable in my own skin.

8. To shop in regular stores.

9. To not critique everyone in my vicinity to see if I am the biggest one in the room.

10. To take my daughter horseback riding.

11. sex with the lights on!

12. To dance without worrying that I look so huge on the dancefloor.

13. To not revolve an outing around where we are going to eat.

14. To look like the hip, cool mom I feel like I am on the inside.

15. I know I will think of more---edit later.