Okay So I went shopping for everything I may need post op today!! ugh everything I knew I couldnt buy or wanted was screeming my name... Maybe I was hungry? It was really sad and liberating.. .I can do this. I can live on water, broth, ice pops and jello.. Cant I ? "o boy" I hope so.. I was sitting with my 3 yr old son and he just came up to me and gave me a hug.. ( he knows something is going on when we go grocery shopping and not get ANY junk) If Im making a change; Everyone is.. My son needs to learn what eating healthy is too and its not to late for him. O0o0o and on a better note!! I got a new robe, slippers and pj's!! (macy's is having a sale and I went a little crazy!) I deserve it!! So Im going to end this with Its a new begining and I cant wait for this journey to begin so I can LIVE!! I stopped on the way home from my pre-op testing and did something I would never normally do... I got my hair cut!! ( I have a fear of haircuts; there-fore have always had LONNNG hair) I donated 15 inch to 'children with hairloss' and still have hair to my colar-bone, so already my life is going forward instead of stuck in the house reading a book because Im to ashamed of myself to take my son to the park.!! <3 -MegS