Well, I am 2 days from surgery and getting anxious. I am over the what if's of having this surgery. What if I gain it back. People keep saying you can fail at this. You have to work at it. It is not a magic bullet. For so long I thought, "Well that is what I have to do now". Why have the surgery? An answer finally came that worked for me. A friend said," The difference is, that if you work at it with the band, you will see results".

My other concern was that if you can fail at this, well, I WILL as I have in the past. Finally I thought about it from a different vantage point. I was in sales for 20 years. I never went into a sales call thinking I am not going to close this deal. I was in control of it. I was not a vicitm where it was controlling the outcome. It was like a light bulb went off for me. I am not a victim. It is my choice to succeed and I have someone in my corner called the lap band helping me succeed where I could not before. I get energy and confidence from that.

My last concern to mention at 2 days before surgery. I am anxious about going to the hospital. I am a private person and dread not being in control of things. I am one to avoid shots at all costs, so to do this is quite a mountain to climb. I hope all goes well.

I have been amazed at how easy I have handled the diet before the surgery. Only a couple of times have I been hungry. I made a big batch of soup and added lots of spices like cajun seasoning, salt, pepper, garlic powder. Used boxed chicken broth for a base, added tomato juice to it along with onions, carrots, celery, cabbage. It is an old weight watcher's recipe. It is so satisfying to fix a cup of this. The veggies are still mostly crunchy so it gives me something to chew.