I so can relate. I was banded in 2009 and was a model patient. I lost 70 lbs and was feeling wonderful. Life thru out major stumbling blocks and a few tornados. My son was killed in Afganistan, some friends I had helped out big time financially went Bat Sh*t crazy and sadly to say are no longer our friends. I learned I could eat things that weren't in my diet. I was having major reflux at night and pouch pain (due to be overfull, I found out later). Went through unfill, refill and lots of self beating up. I have gained 40 lbs and feel like a total failure.

I have often said to myself that I waisted all this money and time for something that I am not getting to work. I'm trying to pick myself out of that depression hole and get back on track.

I attended my first support ground in 3 years and just completed the 5 day pouch test. I'm back here to find support and encouragement.

Your not alone. We have the tool we just need to find that determination we had in the beginning and get back on track. Luck to you.

Bless your heart, I can't imagine losing a son. Thanks to you for his service.

I weighed today and nearly freaked out, 5 more lbs!! So today I am starting my Dr.'s restart program.

It is similiar to the two week program we had to do to have surgery. I am determined at this minute, but I have to "cook" homade cornbread, beans, etc.... and I have done the same as you realized that I can chew it to the point of mush. I also got back on Coca Cola that I love!! My husband is my enabler. He will bring home Coke and candy (I am a chocoholic). I just have to stand firm. I did it before, I can do it again. And, so can you!!! Congratulations for losing 70lbs!!! That is great!

We need to love ourselves and just get back on the wagon. We knew we needed a band, that is why we got one. Congrats, too on the 5 day pouch diet, how did you do? Good Luck and have a great day : ))