I got banded on Wednesday, and today (Saturday) I'm having a hard time consuming much of anything. I just might die if I look at another protein shake, and I don't want anything... but I'm hungry enough that I don't feel good. My mind has me thinking I'm sick because my stomach doesn't feel good, so all I want to eat is toast or spaghetti noodles (things I would eat if I had the flu).

On a positive note, I'm down 7 pounds since Wednesday morning! I didn't throw up yesterday! Funny how the little things mean so much . And I still haven't had a moment where I wish I wouldn't have done this. Sure, there's lots of things I *want* to eat right now, but nothing that has made me want to take it all back.

I knew the emotional aspect of this whole thing would be difficult, but it's been a little more intense than I thought it would be. I'm having quite the pity party right now, and would like to knock it off. I did this for my health, my future, and for my self-esteem. I'm 24 years old and tired of fighting with my weight for my whole life. 4 years ago, I lost 50 pounds all by myself, and now I'm about 70 pounds higher than that. Mom had a bypass in 2006 and dad just got a sleeve 3 weeks ago. I'm really looking forward to a month from now when I'm into a rhythm, back to work, and losing weight steadily. My fiance and I are going to get married this winter once I get the majority of my weight off (I wanna look half way decent lol) and I'm looking forward to moving out and developing new eating habits with my husband. Thankfully, he's much healthier than I am, and while I don't want to rely on him for strength, it will be nice to move out of my parents house where I've lived for 16 years and it's become my haven for eating...

I'm gonna try to drink a protein shake to get this "hunger" feeling to go away. I've heard of this hunger thing before, but never knew what it mean til now lol