Tomorrow starts my liquid diet before surgery. My surgery date is scheduled for August 1st and I am excited and nervous all at the same time. I am so ready to get started on this journey and get back in control of my life. I feel like for the past 19 years that I have not had any control and this is my step towards getting back on track. My husband told me back some time ago that he wanted me to be around many years from now and he was concerned that if I didn't get control of my weight that he was afraid for my health. That scared me but also made me realize that I had to get control . So starting tomorrow I start my liquid diet and if feel that as long as I can get through that with no tool to help me, I can do this life changing event with the lap band. I would like to lose at least 100 lbs but would like to lose 120lbs. I am going to take each day, one day at a time and I am going to give myself a break if I mess up because I don't know that there is anyone who goes through this perfectly. that has been an issue for me.....being a failure and not doing things perfectly. No one is perfect. Only God has the ability to be perfect so I need to give myself a break.

If anyone reads this and has any words of wisdom please give them tome because anything is appreciated.

I am going to try and blog about what I am feeling during the next few weeks,