There nothing worst the getting unfilled on Juily 4 So i thought. Nothing worst then have my dr fellow stick me four times with a neadle and then say i just did not place this port and can't feel the edges so it very hard. I thought have an florcepy to be unbanded was band then haveing endocpepy to be fixed was alsp bad.

But now I am stuck in hunger land. I am back of Lquids for the next week and half but who counting. The worst part of the huger is not the hunger i feel. It the head hunger the hunger to eat something in my head. It became a thought of mine at all times I see food ad on TV and then i want that. I drive by a place and can smell the food and want that. I made a list of all the food i going to eat once i am better enough to not be on lquids.

I know it all in my head and this is the worst part. It like when i did pre opt deit all i would dream about food roast chicken I just wish i had an easyer time. I guess it good that I was able to save my band but God i would kill for an egg roll just one bit. I find that i can't do normal stuff becuse i am just too tempted right now to do the worng thing.