Well i am almost at my year mark. only one more month and ill be there September will be one whole year. Last month was truly the hardest month i have had in my journey. And it turns out it really wasn't my fault. But for me to get to the point of how this happened i guess you kinda have to go back to where it started right?? Back in February i found out that i have arthritis in my hands crazy because im only 25 but my reg Doctor said i have had it for a while i was just to big to really see it before. So he put me on a drug called neproxon to help with swelling and the pain. My lap band dr informed me that i shouldn't be taking them since i have had ulcers in the past and to go ahead and take what i was told but if i got heart burn to stop taking them. So i got the heart burn and i stopped.

So last month i started to get what i thought was a tooth ache, i haven't ever had one before and the dentist that i work for was out of town so they called me in an antibiotic and some pain medication. i was sitting right there and hurt what she said when she called the meds in. I went and picked up the meds and started taking the antibiotic and the pain meds that on the bottle said Sub for lortab, which is hydrocodone. After a while the pain was still there and nothing seem to change. The pain was still there now before this i hurt my back falling out of a chair and my reg dr gave me Tramadol and a muscle relaxer. so i thought maybe i would take the Tramadol and that just made me sick to my stomach. So i stopped taking all of it but the antibiotic. Then i got a horrible ear infection and realized it wasn't my teeth but the ear. Any ways after that is when the horrible heart burn started and i thought i was just really sick i thought it was a stomach bug and nothing would stop it. Well during that time i started to look at the Tramadol the hydrocodone and realized that i wasn't taking what was on the pills the hydrocodone was actually neproxon and the Tramadol had more salt in it then median.

After it was all said and done and i was better i got to wondering why they did that to me when both dr and dentist know i am not aloud to take neproxon. So i called the office last night and ask if that is what she called in for me and she said no i called in what i was supposed to and never once did i tell them to give you neproxon because i know you cant take it and i don't understand why that did that any ways what we call in is what needs to be in the bottle i said well i understand that but on the bottle it says something completely different then what was in the bottle.

Then i got to thinking well i have lost alto of weight this year and what if he thinks that im just a pill popper?? i don't do it i only take what is given to me and that's it. And then Monday i went for my fill.............................

Normally i am so excited about my fill and i cant wait but Monday i started crying as soon as we got there and i wouldn't go in. My lap band buddy was like what is wrong i said i dont know i just cant do this. Thank god for her she told me it would be ok and to go in so i did an i told them that i didn't know what was wrong with me. I told them what had happened at the hospital and i told them how i felt along and abandon by them they informed me that there was no reason for them to treat me like they did and that they would do anything to make it right. The er dr that took the liquid out shouldn't have done it and knew to call the on call nurse for lap band but i didn't feel much better i kinda feel like i have been done wrong buy them and my the pharmisy. I was told by my dad who i work for as a dental assistant what i felt like and what all had happen he said i needed to see my reg doctor so i did. I told him about everything i told him i couldn't stop cry but i didn't know what was wrong i have bad dreams and the fear that i felt was nuts. I also told him i didn't have time for a break down. He didn't tell me to calm down he told me he understood and that i was going to be ok i just needed to find a different pharmisy and that i needed to be on some meds just for a little bit to make me calm that i wasn't crazy and i wasn't depressed. He gave me the medication and well being myself I went to the same pharmisy and i looked him in the eyes and said if you think i have a pill problem that's fine, but my doctors don't give me meds that i don't need, and the next time you choose to give me something different because you think i have a pill problem ill turn you in. You put me in the hospital over the hydrocodone that was neproxon because i have lap band and i cant take that medication and all the doctors know that so maybe you should know that too. I told him i was going to give him this prescription and it had better be what is in that bottle. It was and it helped me through that day and now i am fine. But in a way i have a fear of trusting now about what am i really getting in the prescription bottles because clearly i cant trust what i am getting can it???????

I am scared and should i be? I never want to scare anyone away from lap band because it changed my life for more then the better and i would get it again but im just scared right now My lap band team is awesome and none of this was really my fault or there fault. But i have learned not to trust anything even if its my prescription and not to trust what it says on the bottle its what is in the bottle that you have to look at.