Hi everyone.

I've been really unwell lately.

I have some medical conditions besides the obesity and the problems with it. I have asthma, PCOS, GERD, Epstien Barr (chronic fatigue syndrome) costocondritis and Fibromyalgia.

I wish I had this operation last year before I started feeling so sick. Lately, I have been so ill I am am afraid to exert myself at all because I can't breath.

I'm doing this to feel well again, to hell with buying clothes (although that is an added bonus)

Back in May of 1998 I had my first "asthma attack". I woke up wheezing

one morning, went to the hospital, but the time I got there, I was

feeling better. They figured I had it seasonally due to allergies, gave

me an inhaler and that was it. I hardly used it over the years, just

when I was around cigarette smoke or pollen.

Fast foward a few years and now I have Fibrimyalgia which developed into something called Costocondtitis. The tissue in the ribs is

inflammed which constricts the lungs. Coupled with the fact I put on

quite a bit of weight, I have bad asthma now.

But lately it has been worse, my chest feeling tight and coughing on a deep exhale. Especially in the mornings. I'm not sure what is going on

during the night, because I wake in the mornings feeling pretty lousy.

I went to the doctor the other day and she said my breath is sounding

slow on the exhale and gave me Aerobid inhaler.

I'm getting scared and wondering if I will be okay through the surgery.I want to get better, I don't want this! I'm hoping with the weight loss program, I'm hoping it will lessen or dissapear with the

weight loss.

My BMI is lower than some, but that just goes to show you how different we are. My body can't tolerate being 230lbs.

Today I woke up again, feeling ill, and just got in the shower and sat there, letting it pour down on me. For some reason, that always makes me feel better.