So, I did all my grocery shopping today for my pre op diet. I am sooo very scared to fail, but I am working on that. I know I need a positive attitude to get through this. I know some people may think.."OMG, its only 2 weeks!!". Well, if I the will power to control my food intake I wouldn't be getting the Lap Band. I have spent many hours researching, reading articles and mentally preparing myself for this. It's not easy, I can't imagine it was easy for anyone. I do, however, have the desire and determination to be healthy again. I amcurrently looking for volunteer work or a project to do during these 2 weeks to keep my mind preoccupied. Sitting home just opens up way to much time to munch and fail.

I have a really good friend that had gastric bypass, she is a huge support for me especially since she went from a size 20 to wearing her bikini at the pool yesterday. I felt like a beached whale, but it was very encouraging for me to want to lose the weight and just wear smaller clothes. Her family is moving to Hawaii in a couple of months and for my reward next year when I meet my weightloss goal is to fly out to Hawaii to see her.

I start my pre op diet on Monday. I know I can do this, not without struggle, but with determination.