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Dear Food, You Annoy Me

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I realize that just because I had surgery that my struggles with food would not come to an end. I am so tired of my issues with food. Its supposed to be fuel for the body!...so why do I think about food all the time!? I am not sure how to get thru this. I started seeing a therapist but nothing seems to help. Willpower needs to kick in high gear and even then I give in and say oh I'll start tomorrow. So tell me why do I do that when I want this so much I could scream? do I not want it that bad? These are questions that I constantly play in my head. I can't answer them and if I do I get pumped up for a few mins and then its gone. I am frustrated because I am at a loss. I am not giving up tho. I am very determined to do this. I just have to struggle with all that on top of it that it weighs down. Lately I am exhausted and use that as an excuse to not work out but when I do work out I fell great...I don't get it. Yesterday I had to go in to the doc's to have fluid removed because I got super sick on Monday causing me to vomit in turn swell so in order for me to even get water down they had to remove fluid. I go back in a few weeks to have it put back but still I sit here hungry...even tho I am on a liquid diet due to the issue for today and back to normal tomorrow I just know that once "let" lose I'll be like do I really want that Sure why not and gobble gobble.

I don't mean to sound like poor me poor me...I realize its all me...I just don't get how I want it so much to just fail... :wacko:

well thats my vent for the day...hope everyone else is doing awesome :wub:

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Keep your chin up. I still think about food often, but not nearly as much as before. I have heard some people always struggle with the mental aspect and some forget to even eat!

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I totally understand- more than you know I understand and more than I wish I did I UNDERSTAND!!! I am to food, what a drug addict is to food and what an alcohol is to an alcoholic. I too have been going to see a counselor. I have used food as a drug of choice, a means of celebration, a way to grieve and a way to express myself, abuse myself and love myself. I have been overweight all my life. At 53 I know to well the hell that comes from obesity from infancy through midlife. I am so thankful for the lap band but it is not the end all, be all and do all. I have suffered from a twisted band because I threw up so much and had to have it redone. I still throw up often, usually from eating too fast, too often and too much. I have managed to lose 60 pounds. I had lost 80 but I have gained 20 back. I am now struggling with blood sugar problems. I have severe weak spells. This fat girl works out hard and often. I spin, do weight lifting, yoga, body pump, use various cardio machines and walk. I think I actually work out too much. I use to work out 4-5 days a week for 90 minutes. Now I am down to 3-4 days a week for 90 minutes. I would love to know if anyone works out a lot and has a problem. I am wondering if I should cut my workouts down, add fluid to my band and try to get the added weight off. I am lost, depressed, and overwhelmed. PLEASE HELP!!!!!

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Hi there, I can completely relate to what you said. I don't think you work out to much but your doctor may be able to determine. What kinds of foods do you eat? are you tempted alot? i know I am my husband and son do their best but they shouldn't have to suffer to much because of me even tho they don't mind. So I am tempted for the most part I do really well but every day is a real hard struggle. If your feeling hungry I'd say go in for a fill. I am going on Tuesday for one as I feel like I can eat everything in sight. Not a good feeling. I too have gotten sick alot as well and like you mostly from eating to fast. I had to get all my fluid removed and "start over" because I got food stuck. I can't imagine the pain you must of felt when your band twisted. Sorry to hear that. Hang in there we are here for you! and you can come vent any time you need

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