Hi again,

I feel like I've started to struggle with a lot of the same problems I had before I got the band; I guess the problems never really got resolved or went away it just seemed like it. One of my worst habits is eating at night. I just can't seem to help myself. I wake up in the night and my first instinct is to eat eat eat. It's so ingrained in my mind. It's like my second nature. And the problem is I don't just eat one thing. I want to eat everything that comes to mind! It's not that it's junk food, it's good nutritional food, it's just that it IS CALORIES. Too many calories.

I feel like I've tried everything to change the habit. Locking the kitchen door and hiding the key. Taking water and a small snack with me upstairs so I don't go down. Sleeping medications. Therapy.

WHY CAN'T I GET A HOLD OF MYSELF AND STOP THIS.

I ate again in the night (really this morning) again today. I have eaten 500 calories and it's not even 7 am. And I know there are people out there that only eat 1000 cal a day. I DON'T KNOW HOW THEY DO IT! I feel so bad about myself I don't even want to move this morning. It feels like my whole day is a disaster and it's RUINED BY MY MISTAKE. Now I feel like I have to starve myself the rest of the day to make up for all I ate at 12:30 in the night. I don't know that I'm looking for a solution from other people, i just feel like I need to get this off my chest. But suggestions are welcome. Thanks for the talk.